[ Hux doesn't feel anything but determination, though it doesn't last long enough for him to grab complete hold of.
Not as the hours slip past, images filtering by faster than he can process in some cases. On others, he lingers on certain places or people. Specific instances. Time has no bearing. Past, present, the seconds before the future. He relives ups and downs. Triumph and excruciating loss. Each time something unwanted came to the fore, it got a little easier to redirect. To control how much was shown. Ren could still easily dig into his mind, but there was the beginning of understanding how to prevent it.
The anxious parts of him want to continue until he masters it. Even if it doesn't make sense to right now. Logic is only half functioning as he feels so ragged. Exhausted, from this in combination with poor sleep over the last number of days. It aches all the way to his bones.
Slowly but surely he gets his breath under control, can feel his pulse lowering back to normal. Ren is calling a halt and he can't do much else but agree, despite the spike of nerves that grip him. Weakly, he pushes himself to stand, pride the only thing keeping him upright.
That doesn't last long, since he's soon swaying on his feet. Knees bending, he reaches out to Ren's shoulder before he ends up on the floor. ]
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Date: 2016-05-02 09:03 am (UTC)Not as the hours slip past, images filtering by faster than he can process in some cases. On others, he lingers on certain places or people. Specific instances. Time has no bearing. Past, present, the seconds before the future. He relives ups and downs. Triumph and excruciating loss. Each time something unwanted came to the fore, it got a little easier to redirect. To control how much was shown. Ren could still easily dig into his mind, but there was the beginning of understanding how to prevent it.
The anxious parts of him want to continue until he masters it. Even if it doesn't make sense to right now. Logic is only half functioning as he feels so ragged. Exhausted, from this in combination with poor sleep over the last number of days. It aches all the way to his bones.
Slowly but surely he gets his breath under control, can feel his pulse lowering back to normal. Ren is calling a halt and he can't do much else but agree, despite the spike of nerves that grip him. Weakly, he pushes himself to stand, pride the only thing keeping him upright.
That doesn't last long, since he's soon swaying on his feet. Knees bending, he reaches out to Ren's shoulder before he ends up on the floor. ]