[An order was easy. An order he could follow, happily. He takes up a stride just behind Hux's heel, not so bold as to act as if he place was by his side, but near enough to make it easy to speak. He didn't often end up guarding the officials the way that the shock troopers so often did, but he was growing somewhat used to it, from the time he had spent trailing after Kylo Ren, a place of honor in which he stood out. Boldly or brashly, depending on your opinion.
As for an honest opinion-]
I do think I'm adjusting well, sir. As well as could be expected. The regiment is, of course, very similar, the training is rewarding.
[There is a small pause there. The only problem in his assessment.]
There is some way to go in integrating with my fellow soldiers, but I have not found it to negatively impact my performance.
[Some trouble which he would not go into without further prompting. It wasn't his place to suggest jealousy or mistrust in the ranks. Their reservations were no doubt justified. And it hadn't seeped into battle. Yet.
As for the isolation- it was nothing worth noting. The cost more than worth the cause.]
[ Something he occasionally misses from when he was a lower rank– following orders. With ease. Without having to ask the super important questions about whether those orders are legitimate, whether they'll work. Yes, he still has Supreme Leader Snoke to deal with, but those are less of orders and more of demands, in his opinion. Hux doesn't precisely fear the Force user, but he is uncomfortable with the unknown.
Which extends from Snoke directly to Kylo Ren.
However, that's not exactly here. Instead, he has a trooper who is only willing to listen and answer his questions. Politely, from about a step behind. Hux recognizes the respect, though he angles his head towards the other so he can hear better. ]
Rewarding, good, I'm glad to hear it. We wanted to ensure a pilot of your talent was not wasted, taking into account your comfort as well. [ Not too comfortable, because that led to laziness. But decent challenges bred a desire to perform and perform to the best of ones ability. Just enough recognition, too, went a long way.
There is something to contend with, though, and that is the integration. Hux keeps the sour look off of his face, but he suspects he may have to do have a hand in shifting that tide. After all, teamwork is the name of the game. The First Order didn't run off of one man's will alone (even if he's fairly certain his will would get the job done). It was a well oiled machine. ]
No, I doubt it would affect your performance. [ He's much too good for that. ] It has potential for self-sabotage on others, though. I would most prefer that not to happen.
[ Sounds like some team building exercises will be necessary. Hux notates that, mentally, to bring to Phasma and train the childishness out. Trust, naturally, will be more difficult to breed, but he finds that will show when they have a more open mind about things. And people. ]
For the time being, I may assign you to a accompany some lead pilots. It should alleviate some of the...how should I say– grumbling. [ A small bit of humor curls his lip up. ]
How do more assignments sound, TX-701? [ A pause, because he doesn't want this to sound like a punishment. ] Up to your decision. You may decline, if you prefer.
Thank you, sir. [There's a note of genuine pride in his voice, for all it's a demure answer for his praise. He was a good pilot, his skills being recognized could only benefit the Order. Of that he had no doubt.
That edge- something close to smug- doesn't last long, however. It's clear that the General is not pleased with his admission. He is more than aware it's not a burden he's placed upon his shoulders, but his words had been the cause nevertheless, and there's a twinge of something, something like failure. Something unacceptable. His mouth thins behind his helmet, a small sign of discomfort that is nevertheless unseen. It's- unfortunate, to think that his presence could cause some schism. Could lead to any weakness among the rank and file. It feels like a personal failing more than the rest does.
His attention, wandering for the shortest moment snaps back to Hux then, and the helmet once again hides what he shouldn't show. Surprise, open on his face. That wasn't what he was expecting, really. He notices the smile, but he thinks it's more for the suggestion than it is for him.
More assignments? More hours in the cockpit, with other pilots. It sounded good. Something about flying- it eased a part of him that found itself ill at ease. Quickened his pulse. It was almost better than service- almost. His step picks up, almost catching up to Hux and his much longer legs- but before he can answer, before the edge of excitement can give him a sharp clear affirmative he remembers-
Kylo Ren, who reminded him that he was his. Whose requests were far from regular but which were not anything he would or could refuse.]
Sir- General, I would like to say yes, but my time is not always my own- [And that feels like telling some secret, something that wasn't meant to be known, either. There's a dull thud building in his head, a pressure. Pulse picking up without his permission.]
Sir. [He finished lamely, bitterness on his tongue and he's not sure if it's for Hux's request or Ren's- both were a rare honor. Honors he would fight for, would prove his worthiness for. Service he would gladly do, but he couldn't do both. Kylo Ren, who would tell him the truth, as his place in the Order assured, had said he was special, that his orders were above Hux's but- The General's position, his personal responsibility for the soldiers was known. He couldn't- do both. Be both things.]
[ Over the years, he's become accustomed to people saying things and doing another. Or of the tones used to express themselves even if their faces cannot be seen. In this moment, he hears the grin, the note of pride in 701's voice. It's pleasing, because the answer is respectful as well. Not cocky.
Good, all good.
Though, even without looking, the silence suggests a change of mood. Hux is no Force user, but he could guess that the rift is weighing on the other. There's a discomfort; tension sitting in the space between. For now, he lets it lie until he's absolutely sure. Something to keep in mind for another time.
Because he's being gifted with the bite of information he really went looking for. A part of him crows with delight, though he keeps that off of his expression. To show his elation would be a breach of character and he has a certain reputation to control. ]
I understand your dedication to the First Order, but this is your choice, you understand. Is there something barring you from making it?
[A question isn't, strictly speaking, an order. But to refuse to answer a superior's question is a form of disobedience. He wouldn't refuse, then. Would never, but he hesitates anyway.
Kylo Ren has told him that he will be important. That his actions will have meaning and will help, more than the regular duties of a stormtrooper, of a pilot, them win their war. That he is instrumental in some way, for some unknown reason. But he had said it in private. In the dark, in the quiet, just for him. Whether this is common knowledge, he doesn't know. If it's not, does knowing put the plan at risk?
But how could it? General Hux was beyond reproach. He was loyal. He was a faithful son of the Empire.
So why didn't he know? Except it is no secret that there is some- friction between the two of them. Between Kylo Ren's position, untitled but powerful, and Hux's, with the title but no control over the Jedi Hunter. Their disagreements were the worst kept secret within the ranks, and even before Kylo had told him that Hux didn't own him TX-701 had heard the whisperings of it.
The headache doesn't fade, and the pressure, to answer, only increases.]
I have duties, sir. Beyond those assigned by Captain Phasma.
[Which is the most subtle way he can think to say something he isn't sure he can say at all. It's clear in his tone that it's only reluctantly spoken, words forced and short.]
He could, in all honesty, ask for details in a bullish manner. But, he has no intention of rendering his troopers useless. And while 701 is already caught between his and Ren's friction, exacerbating it could lead to the pilot thinking it's entirely his fault. Guilt and split loyalties are not what he wants to impose. Slowing his pace, he takes some time to consider his response.
There's nothing that irritates him more than Kylo Ren whispering into TX-701's ear, corrupting a perfect soldier of his. It's childish, to pull him in one direction, and quite frankly, it feels as though his authority as General is being undermined. Nothing new, not totally, but a different tactic than has been tried in the past. Resisting the urge to breathe out a deep sigh, he keeps his composure on tight, face as impassive as he can manage.
If Kylo Ren wants to play games, then he'll have to realize who he's playing against. ]
They were assigned by Lord Ren? He seems to favor you, especially as of late.
[The General's pace slows, and so does TX-701's. The result is even greater silence in the hall, even less to disguise the words being spoken. Less distraction from the low pain.
Things would be- easier. If there was some agreement between them. They had the same goal (didn't they? didn't they all?) so there should be peace. Stability. Order. The fact that there wasn't- wasn't something for him to consider. It was none of his business. Questioning their actions was not his place. Where his place was, that was the problem. He was the problem.]
Yes. [And the answer is to both, short and flat and echoing inside of his helmet. Yes, they were. Yes, he was.]
He has found use in my service.
[Why his service? That was something he could't explain. Not with any sense.]
[ Though it may not seem evident by his dealings with Kylo Ren, favors order. When things and people are in their proper places. Protocols, laws, rules– these are all things by which he lives his life. From the time he could walk, his father had instilled in him the pride of the waned Empire. Stories of heroic feats and how it had saved lives. So many lives.
Because what people crave most is order and detail. They want to know where their next meal is coming from and when. How they're going to get it and if it will be a matter of jumping through hoops or not. Stability, more than anything else, pulls at the hearts and minds.
Except Ren is everything but. Emotional, he lashes out, a destructive force with no leash. His very personality is at odds with everything he'd grown up to idolize and imitate and frankly, it's an affront to the First Order.
In short, Kylo Ren is problematic, and it's manifesting itself in TX-701 now. ]
I see. [ Time for a little more pressure. ] Lord Ren's personal interests have no bearing on what's at hand. I will be sending you out on the next flight based mission, to assist in strengthening our pilots' skills. If Lord Ren has complaints he should voice them in the proper order.
[ And with that, he stops, feet coming together automatically before he turns to look at 701. ] Is that clear?
[Were he another man, even another trooper, this would be, if not simple, then clear in one way or another. The orders, the conflict they presented, would boil down to a simple concept: who did you fear more? Kylo Ren, of the Knights of Ren, Jedi Hunter, Supreme Leader Snoke's apprentice, or General Hux, leader of the First Order troops, face of First Order military might, personally responsible for your livelihood.
For TX-701 it is less simple than a choice between two painful deaths. And the option, to lie, to swear equally to both, was not one he could manage.
Nor is it as simple as who he preferred. His loyalty to the Order was absolute. Ren and Hux had equal footing within it. Individually it was no more simple. Kylo Ren and his dark whisperings were- seductive. Fit to a truth he felt somewhere deep inside of himself. That he was separate somehow. But assured this difference would only serve the Order, would only make them stronger. The promise of a place of respect. What General Hux offered was no lesser. The urge to conform, to fit neatly within the ranks was buried deep. To stand beside his brothers under the watchful eyes of the General and the Captain and do his small part to form the single best military force in the Galaxy was something that had been seeded into him.
He breaths in, and it feels like blades, like glass.]
I- sir- [The general had turned to face him. He's not entirely sure when it happened. His thoughts are very loud. He couldn't betray him. He couldn't betray him.
Is it clear? Yes, it is clear. Could he follow this order? If Kylo Ren did not require him. If Kylo Ren did require him? He was his- he had said so. But refusing a mission would weaken the Order. That was unacceptable. Kylo Ren wouldn't-
It cycles. He can taste blood in his mouth. His hands are shaking and he's not sure when that started. The sound of his blood in his ears is louder than it should be, echoes and echoes and echoes like the sound of footsteps across a metal floor or fists in flesh and it is almost a relief when he hits the ground because then he doesn't think anything at all.]
[ His words seem to hang between them, louder in the empty hall and magnified by the lack of their steps. Hux recognizes that this is a pressure point. Not necessarily for TX-701, but for the troopers in general. Who to answer to? The General with his military backing, his status, or to the Jedi Hunter, Force-user, unknown in rank but somehow equal? He knows too, that most, if not all, will choose based on fear alone. On which consequences they'd rather not face.
It's a survival response, one that is simultaneously beneficial and frustrating.
However, as the time between his question and the answer extends, he wonders what exactly is going on behind the helmet. Was this so difficult? He's getting something of a start in the next moment, words coming out painful, breathing sharp and loud even with the muffled mask. Very suddenly, TX-701 lurches, sways forward and then back. Before he has a chance to reach out and steady him, there's the crash as his trooper bodily hits the floor. Shock registers somewhere in his mind, but he's long practiced in attending to that at a later time. Calmly, he bends down to check for a pulse (weak) before striding over to the closest comm port and getting medical scrambling up here ten minutes ago.
Something like worry gnaws at him; to acknowledge it would be weak, so he doesn't. And simply waits. ]
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Date: 2016-01-31 10:31 pm (UTC)[An order was easy. An order he could follow, happily. He takes up a stride just behind Hux's heel, not so bold as to act as if he place was by his side, but near enough to make it easy to speak. He didn't often end up guarding the officials the way that the shock troopers so often did, but he was growing somewhat used to it, from the time he had spent trailing after Kylo Ren, a place of honor in which he stood out. Boldly or brashly, depending on your opinion.
As for an honest opinion-]
I do think I'm adjusting well, sir. As well as could be expected. The regiment is, of course, very similar, the training is rewarding.
[There is a small pause there. The only problem in his assessment.]
There is some way to go in integrating with my fellow soldiers, but I have not found it to negatively impact my performance.
[Some trouble which he would not go into without further prompting. It wasn't his place to suggest jealousy or mistrust in the ranks. Their reservations were no doubt justified. And it hadn't seeped into battle. Yet.
As for the isolation- it was nothing worth noting. The cost more than worth the cause.]
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Date: 2016-02-01 04:48 am (UTC)Which extends from Snoke directly to Kylo Ren.
However, that's not exactly here. Instead, he has a trooper who is only willing to listen and answer his questions. Politely, from about a step behind. Hux recognizes the respect, though he angles his head towards the other so he can hear better. ]
Rewarding, good, I'm glad to hear it. We wanted to ensure a pilot of your talent was not wasted, taking into account your comfort as well. [ Not too comfortable, because that led to laziness. But decent challenges bred a desire to perform and perform to the best of ones ability. Just enough recognition, too, went a long way.
There is something to contend with, though, and that is the integration. Hux keeps the sour look off of his face, but he suspects he may have to do have a hand in shifting that tide. After all, teamwork is the name of the game. The First Order didn't run off of one man's will alone (even if he's fairly certain his will would get the job done). It was a well oiled machine. ]
No, I doubt it would affect your performance. [ He's much too good for that. ] It has potential for self-sabotage on others, though. I would most prefer that not to happen.
[ Sounds like some team building exercises will be necessary. Hux notates that, mentally, to bring to Phasma and train the childishness out. Trust, naturally, will be more difficult to breed, but he finds that will show when they have a more open mind about things. And people. ]
For the time being, I may assign you to a accompany some lead pilots. It should alleviate some of the...how should I say– grumbling. [ A small bit of humor curls his lip up. ]
How do more assignments sound, TX-701? [ A pause, because he doesn't want this to sound like a punishment. ] Up to your decision. You may decline, if you prefer.
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Date: 2016-02-01 06:29 am (UTC)That edge- something close to smug- doesn't last long, however. It's clear that the General is not pleased with his admission. He is more than aware it's not a burden he's placed upon his shoulders, but his words had been the cause nevertheless, and there's a twinge of something, something like failure. Something unacceptable. His mouth thins behind his helmet, a small sign of discomfort that is nevertheless unseen. It's- unfortunate, to think that his presence could cause some schism. Could lead to any weakness among the rank and file. It feels like a personal failing more than the rest does.
His attention, wandering for the shortest moment snaps back to Hux then, and the helmet once again hides what he shouldn't show. Surprise, open on his face. That wasn't what he was expecting, really. He notices the smile, but he thinks it's more for the suggestion than it is for him.
More assignments? More hours in the cockpit, with other pilots. It sounded good. Something about flying- it eased a part of him that found itself ill at ease. Quickened his pulse. It was almost better than service- almost. His step picks up, almost catching up to Hux and his much longer legs- but before he can answer, before the edge of excitement can give him a sharp clear affirmative he remembers-
Kylo Ren, who reminded him that he was his. Whose requests were far from regular but which were not anything he would or could refuse.]
Sir- General, I would like to say yes, but my time is not always my own- [And that feels like telling some secret, something that wasn't meant to be known, either. There's a dull thud building in his head, a pressure. Pulse picking up without his permission.]
Sir. [He finished lamely, bitterness on his tongue and he's not sure if it's for Hux's request or Ren's- both were a rare honor. Honors he would fight for, would prove his worthiness for. Service he would gladly do, but he couldn't do both. Kylo Ren, who would tell him the truth, as his place in the Order assured, had said he was special, that his orders were above Hux's but- The General's position, his personal responsibility for the soldiers was known. He couldn't- do both. Be both things.]
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Date: 2016-02-01 08:45 am (UTC)Good, all good.
Though, even without looking, the silence suggests a change of mood. Hux is no Force user, but he could guess that the rift is weighing on the other. There's a discomfort; tension sitting in the space between. For now, he lets it lie until he's absolutely sure. Something to keep in mind for another time.
Because he's being gifted with the bite of information he really went looking for. A part of him crows with delight, though he keeps that off of his expression. To show his elation would be a breach of character and he has a certain reputation to control. ]
I understand your dedication to the First Order, but this is your choice, you understand. Is there something barring you from making it?
[ Or someone. ]
oops
Date: 2016-02-02 02:05 am (UTC)Kylo Ren has told him that he will be important. That his actions will have meaning and will help, more than the regular duties of a stormtrooper, of a pilot, them win their war. That he is instrumental in some way, for some unknown reason. But he had said it in private. In the dark, in the quiet, just for him. Whether this is common knowledge, he doesn't know. If it's not, does knowing put the plan at risk?
But how could it? General Hux was beyond reproach. He was loyal. He was a faithful son of the Empire.
So why didn't he know? Except it is no secret that there is some- friction between the two of them. Between Kylo Ren's position, untitled but powerful, and Hux's, with the title but no control over the Jedi Hunter. Their disagreements were the worst kept secret within the ranks, and even before Kylo had told him that Hux didn't own him TX-701 had heard the whisperings of it.
The headache doesn't fade, and the pressure, to answer, only increases.]
I have duties, sir. Beyond those assigned by Captain Phasma.
[Which is the most subtle way he can think to say something he isn't sure he can say at all. It's clear in his tone that it's only reluctantly spoken, words forced and short.]
pats you
Date: 2016-02-04 11:47 pm (UTC)He could, in all honesty, ask for details in a bullish manner. But, he has no intention of rendering his troopers useless. And while 701 is already caught between his and Ren's friction, exacerbating it could lead to the pilot thinking it's entirely his fault. Guilt and split loyalties are not what he wants to impose. Slowing his pace, he takes some time to consider his response.
There's nothing that irritates him more than Kylo Ren whispering into TX-701's ear, corrupting a perfect soldier of his. It's childish, to pull him in one direction, and quite frankly, it feels as though his authority as General is being undermined. Nothing new, not totally, but a different tactic than has been tried in the past. Resisting the urge to breathe out a deep sigh, he keeps his composure on tight, face as impassive as he can manage.
If Kylo Ren wants to play games, then he'll have to realize who he's playing against. ]
They were assigned by Lord Ren? He seems to favor you, especially as of late.
hux chan
Date: 2016-02-05 03:56 am (UTC)Things would be- easier. If there was some agreement between them. They had the same goal (didn't they? didn't they all?) so there should be peace. Stability. Order. The fact that there wasn't- wasn't something for him to consider. It was none of his business. Questioning their actions was not his place. Where his place was, that was the problem. He was the problem.]
Yes. [And the answer is to both, short and flat and echoing inside of his helmet. Yes, they were. Yes, he was.]
He has found use in my service.
[Why his service? That was something he could't explain. Not with any sense.]
isn't that senpai to you
Date: 2016-02-06 06:42 am (UTC)Because what people crave most is order and detail. They want to know where their next meal is coming from and when. How they're going to get it and if it will be a matter of jumping through hoops or not. Stability, more than anything else, pulls at the hearts and minds.
Except Ren is everything but. Emotional, he lashes out, a destructive force with no leash. His very personality is at odds with everything he'd grown up to idolize and imitate and frankly, it's an affront to the First Order.
In short, Kylo Ren is problematic, and it's manifesting itself in TX-701 now. ]
I see. [ Time for a little more pressure. ] Lord Ren's personal interests have no bearing on what's at hand. I will be sending you out on the next flight based mission, to assist in strengthening our pilots' skills. If Lord Ren has complaints he should voice them in the proper order.
[ And with that, he stops, feet coming together automatically before he turns to look at 701. ] Is that clear?
high pitched shrieking emanates from helmet
Date: 2016-02-06 07:31 am (UTC)For TX-701 it is less simple than a choice between two painful deaths. And the option, to lie, to swear equally to both, was not one he could manage.
Nor is it as simple as who he preferred. His loyalty to the Order was absolute. Ren and Hux had equal footing within it. Individually it was no more simple. Kylo Ren and his dark whisperings were- seductive. Fit to a truth he felt somewhere deep inside of himself. That he was separate somehow. But assured this difference would only serve the Order, would only make them stronger. The promise of a place of respect. What General Hux offered was no lesser. The urge to conform, to fit neatly within the ranks was buried deep. To stand beside his brothers under the watchful eyes of the General and the Captain and do his small part to form the single best military force in the Galaxy was something that had been seeded into him.
He breaths in, and it feels like blades, like glass.]
I- sir- [The general had turned to face him. He's not entirely sure when it happened. His thoughts are very loud. He couldn't betray him. He couldn't betray him.
Is it clear? Yes, it is clear. Could he follow this order? If Kylo Ren did not require him. If Kylo Ren did require him? He was his- he had said so. But refusing a mission would weaken the Order. That was unacceptable. Kylo Ren wouldn't-
It cycles. He can taste blood in his mouth. His hands are shaking and he's not sure when that started. The sound of his blood in his ears is louder than it should be, echoes and echoes and echoes like the sound of footsteps across a metal floor or fists in flesh and it is almost a relief when he hits the ground because then he doesn't think anything at all.]
are you some kind of ring wraith
Date: 2016-02-06 09:44 am (UTC)It's a survival response, one that is simultaneously beneficial and frustrating.
However, as the time between his question and the answer extends, he wonders what exactly is going on behind the helmet. Was this so difficult? He's getting something of a start in the next moment, words coming out painful, breathing sharp and loud even with the muffled mask. Very suddenly, TX-701 lurches, sways forward and then back. Before he has a chance to reach out and steady him, there's the crash as his trooper bodily hits the floor. Shock registers somewhere in his mind, but he's long practiced in attending to that at a later time. Calmly, he bends down to check for a pulse (weak) before striding over to the closest comm port and getting medical scrambling up here ten minutes ago.
Something like worry gnaws at him; to acknowledge it would be weak, so he doesn't. And simply waits. ]